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maureenaudrey:

HAPPY SWEET 16 ALEXUS♥

You’re so lucky having to be able to celebrate your sweet sixteen with the angels :) Knowing you and your ghetto ass, you were probably kickin’ it with Tupac and Biggie bumpin some Avant. You have no idea how much we all wanted you to be here to celebrate with us. You may be far away, but just know that you’re forever always in our heart and our minds. We dedicated this whole day to you and we all wore black and red for you. Not to mention we sprayed our hair pink again, just like back in December, for you :) I hope you were looking down on us embarrassed as fuck just like how you were last year when people sang happy birthday to you. It’s too bad we couldn’t see your smile as we sang happy birthday to you this year. But it’s alright. Because we all know you’re up there enjoying yourself. You know we spent almost $40 on balloons, and $21 on pink hair spray? YEAH. Still spoiled. Hahah. We wrote on all of the balloons wishing you a happy birthday hoping you’ll show us in anyway that you got them. And we’re so sorry for our horrible singing LOL! You were probably up there trying to tell us to stop because we’re making your ears bleed. LMAO. We sat by your plaque today for lunch and we were nothing but smiles and laughs. I also wrote you a three page note that wouldn’t float with your balloon :( LOLOL. Alexus, you don’t know how much we all miss you. Your smile is still burned into our memories and I think it’ll stay that way for a long, long time. It’s crazy knowing you were still here exactly a year ago. And it’s even crazier thinking that it’s almost been a year since you’ve passed away. Three more months. Like I said, crazy. I miss you so much. It’s hard typing this because I shouldn’t have to type this. I should be able to say this to you face to face. It’s been a long time, but it still hits hard like it happened yesterday. Don’t ever think once that me or anyone else has ever forgotten about you. Because you’re the first thing that I think about when I open my eyes and the very last when I lay my head down at night. Not to mention how your always randomly popping up in my mind through out the day. And I’m sure this goes for a lot of people too. You’ve made such an impact in so many peoples lives, and you’ve changed so many peoples perspective in life. And because of that I want to say thank you. Thank you for all you’ve done for me and my friends. You may not be here, but you’ve done so much. You made a family out of complete strangers. You’re the reason why me, and all of our friends, never take anything for granted. We cherish life every single day because you taught us that not everyday is promised. If you can’t even be safe in your own home, who knows what will happen. Whenever I’m feeling upset or angry at something you’re the first thing that pops up into my mind and within seconds I’m content again. I know your watching over us because of how happy I see myself and my friends. I see your smile in every single one of them. I honestly don’t know how to explain my feelings about this. I have so much to say but so little words to explain myself in. I just want to give a big thank you to you. Thank you for opening my eyes to such a beautiful world and for letting me have an opportunity to have already met my life long friends. I love and miss you babygirl, don’t be too impatient now. We’ll all meet again sometime in the far future. I hope your having fun up there, and please continue to watch over us every day. Happy birthday♥

I may not have known her well  or really talked to her but I remember during the beginning of my freshman year, I was in the worst mood ever and  she came up to me telling me I shouldn’t cry. We were total strangers to eachother and she still gave me advice about things. I never got her name until a few weeks later and I barely saw her around school. But thank you. It’s nice to know their are still people out there who would do kind things and she was one of them. It’s crazy how life can be, I hope you’re doing very well up there. Happy Birthday Alexis! <3 

I read Mikaly’s comment and that just shows how genuine Alexus was♥ ^

ahhh, I love that, that’s so great <3  ”It’s hard typing this because I shouldn’t have to type this. I should be able to say this to you face to face.” this, ah.

you know, as i saw the balloons go up in the air at school i saw this really pretty pretty pretty pretty butterfly pass by going towards where you guys were. and i thought to myself “it must be alexus” xD i wish i knew her !